Adriana Baddour

Section 1:
I hate to show my emotions. I feel like I cannot show that I am sad or upset because of how I portray myself at school. However, I always choose not to show these feelings because then I feel weak and vulnerable. I want to prove to people that I am strong and not emotional. I hate to cry, which is also part of my hate towards emotion. Because I'm Adriana, the typical extremely loud and happy person, I don't want to be viewed as anything else. If anything, I am happy to be able to hide these emotions.

Section 2:
The only place I show my emotions are at cemetaries, mainly because the thought of dying makes me cry. Knowing that one day, Id be leaving people that I love behind is very depressing. Looking at other people crying during a funeral also makes me depressed. It makes me think that one day, later in my life, an important person to me will die such as my mother or father, which is horrible to think of. I only feel comfortable showing my emotions at these cemetaries because of the environment I am surrounded in.


Section 3:
I was born September 17th, 1990, the first born out of three children. In my family, the first born is viewed as the best. First borns do everything right, even when it comes to extra cirricular activities such as sports or music. We are extremely overprotected, at least thats how my arab side of the family is.
My ethnicity makes it harder for me as a first born. There are many values both sides of my family do not share whatsoever. One side, the arab side, are extremely competitive. Sports are everything. If you are not good, then do not even bother playing. However, as for my Nicaraguan side, everything depends on school and grades.
Both sides of my family are brutally honest, even if the truth hurts, they wont mind saying how they feel. This helps me take criticizm very well. There are no such things as whimps in my family. You better be good at something if you want to succeed.

Section 4:
My childhood years were the same as any ten year old living in San Diego. Although never valued playing childhood games, I still enjoyed playing "states" or four square with my school friends. At my small Catholic school, we had a painting of the United States on the asfault, which is where we got the name "states". "States" was my favorite game, although it consisted of running a lot and I hated to run. The game would start by shouting, "Run over to Maine!" As my friend yelled, everyone only thought only about strategy; willing to run around the entire school so you couldn't be tagged. My friends and I waited until someone made the courageous move of running across the map. As she ran, everyone sprinted towards Maine, making sure they weren't the next victim up to stand.

Section 5:
The man or woman that I remembered the most in my childhood was my father. My father is one of the most important people in my life. He has been the only one that supports me in soccer. He tries to come to every one of my games, even with his chaotic work schedule. At times, when I needed it the most, he is willing to pay for a private trainer so I can be the best. Even since I was involved in tap dancing, he still was there supporting me. Although it is something I love to do, I play for my father as well. I was the son my father never had.