Stepahnie Cagle

Section 1:
I'm scared that because of the bad things I've done, I won't go to heaven. To me remorse is horrible. I hate feeling it. Because I remember that when I was doing something bad, I was having fun and enjoying my good time, but later on I look back on what I did and I feel remorse. I hate wanting to undo my wrong deeds because I love doing them and don't want to stop. So I want to not think about what God and others will think of me, and just do what I want and have fun.

Section 2:
The place that I feel the most remorse is when I go to church. Because its there that I ponder what I've done. I mean I feel that a lot of people only attend church to say they're sorry, like its the place for apologies and not just worshipping God.

Section 3:
I was born on July 7th, 1990, the last of three children. My family has always been very loving, yet very argumentative. We fight constantly, but we always make up. As children, we three girls were always well taken care of. We never went without anything. In fact, we were very much spoiled. Yet there was always a high standard. From a very young age, we were taught both english and Spanish, and being that our mom was a teacher, we knew to value education. College was something that would not be argued, it was simple, we would all have to attend. As sisters we often did not get along. I was supposedly the most spoiled and most stubborn. I often got what I wanted just because I would scream and throw fits. But I can say that of all us girls I am the one that holds family in the highest regard.

Section 4:
When me and my sister were about 6 and 7 we began a game that can be referred to as house. But in a way our method of playing was different. We donned new names that stuck with us until about the ages of 9 and 10. She was always Rachel, and my name was always Monique. Our husbands names were Daniel and Todd. Our childre were two sruffed animals/backpacks. Her son was a dog named Spot, and my son was a bear named Brownie. We would play at this for hours on end. every where we wnet we took our "sons" with us and if we were bored we automatically would continue our other life. we were both the wealthiest people on earth, bout nobody was poor. We worked diligently to make sure our game was free of world problems. Yet there was always a bully named Ibor who would beat up our sons, and we in turn would hurt him. He was a stuffed pelican. Looking back on these days, it reminds me of how close we both were. Being that we were only a year apart, we were always together. I remember we always said we would be best friends and that we would even be college roomates. But of course, this all changed and we grew up. We are now very differnet, but we still have all those memories of our childhood.

Section 5:
An important figure throughout my life especially when I was younger, was my older sister Kourtney. Because she was seven years older than me, I looked up to her and wanted to be just like her. She always had nice clothes and had on cool makeup. I remember watching her get ready before she would go out with her friends and I would wish that I was old enough to go with her. Now when I look back I do see how much I idolized her, and to this day I still do. Shes still so glamorous and in my eyes very successful. Even when I would bother her she never yelled at me or teated me like a pest. She was always nice to me, and we have never really fought. She was always patient with me and would always help me gang up on my other sister Lauren.